Anges or Agnes

I used to play scrabble with my grand mother and I lived for the day that I would know enough to beat her. This was one of my raison d'etre. There was nothing nasty in my yearning, just an incredible force of wanting to be big, to be grown up. And the minute I was, I flew the nest and started a new life.

My birth name is Agnes, which in my native language sounds like "Anne-yes" and I like the sound of it. It comes from Agnus Dei, the sacrificial lamb. For this reason, I disliked it for a long time. And in a way, as my mother used me as a scape goat and a mirror for her neurosis, my name had a poignant truth to it that made it sometimes even unbearable. But there is another aspect to it: the innocence and purity and I believe that it is well suited to me - I hope you will bear with me and not label me as arrogant too soon. I have managed to find my own innocence and purity despite having been "dirtied" by the people who raised me and by many other people after them. Why is it that innocence attracts so much violence from abusers?

But then I started working and interacting with the English speaking world and my name became Ag-nes. And something funny happened: I had a secretary, back then, who kept on mispelling my name into "Anges" and even started calling me like this because of all the corporate lawyers that she worked for, she felt I was the most loving and kind to her (why shouldn't I be, just because she was a secretary? well I guess the question is quite relevant when you work in a law firm). And from there my nick name stuck: Anges

Now Anges, in French, means Angels. And although I felt quite self conscious about it to start with, it seemed to stick. And in a funny sort of way, when I started becoming aware of my mediumship abilities and how much I channel angel guidance, my name took another funny twist or dimension.

I guess I wanted to share all this with you today because many of you change my name from Anges to Agnes and I wanted to say that it's fine. It's just a scrabble trick... all the letters are the same, although i do prefer Anges because somehow it acknowledges my world, my connection and my mission better.

So Anges or Agnes, I am glad you are my friends.

Blessings from the other side

Anges-Agnes